Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Goings on

Not much to report here. Our agency had another conference call...surprise surprise. NO NEWS. One thing I CAN (and will!) say about our agency is that they ARE definitely working hard to resolve this/these issues. I know that I feel like nothing is happening, and of course, VIetnam is closing this year (NOT our agency's fault!), but our agency is working their buts off trying to get us our babies. And in fact, "people" are listening. Senator Dole (from my home state) and her office is VERY on board with helping us out. Which is great. It's mainly b/c our agency and many families FROM our agency (myself included) have been putting in time writing letters, making calls, and in some cases, even meeting with the senators and representatives in person. The thing is, EVERYONE wants to bring our babies home. Everyone EXCEPT the idiots in CIS in Vietnam who obviously couldn't care less about my son turning 10 months old tomorrow...in a crib, in his orphanage that desperately needs the bed for another baby...

Anyway, I digress. The point I wanted to make was that people do appear to be making a difference, but this kind of thing is S-L-O-W. The up-side? Our agency PROMISES we WILL bring The Minute home. And that is what I am holding on to. All of you waiting families, I know a number of you read this blog, we are making a difference. WE WILL BRING OUR BABIES HOME.

In the meantime, I'm going to try to go back to enjoying work, socializing, and the lovely sunny day outside. Or at the very least, I'm going to enjoy the hot cuppa' I have in front of me.

Friday, April 25, 2008

More pictures





Ok, so no puppies or rainbows, but these pictures are nice, right? these are all from my recent trip to Arizona. The desert, usually brown, had just started to green-up and blooms were there, if you looked in the right place. Being the naturalist I am, I took almost as many pictures of the blooming plants as I did of the courses I was sent to take pictures of! And frankly, these turned out much better. These are also posted as a reminder (mostly to myself) that even in a desert, there can be found beauty...and in desperation, a glimmer of hope. (they are prettier if you click on them and see the bigger picture).

So here's to hope. and faith. and Friday evening margaritas...

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

nothing. not a damn thing.

really. nothing to report. I'm back in a "funk". I've come down off my "trip/vacation/work" high, and am back home. Home is good, but a mess. I have packages from JANUARY still sitting on my dinning room table. That's right. I haven't even addressed them; they just sit there. I think MAYBE this week I'll mail them. I just haven't had the desire to do a damn thing. I definitely go through periods where I'm better than I am now and even get some stuff done (that isn't work. by some miracle, my work has only gotten better since I've been depressed about the NO GD TRAVEL APPROVAL... ), but I've stopped going out socially. I've stopped talking to ANYONE on the phone. I haven't been reading blogs; not even my friends blogs. I do still eat, bathe, sleep occasionally, and keep my clothes in some semblance of order, but that's about it. I even walked out the door today and as I was driving to work realized that I hadn't even brushed my hair. Oh well. Like anyone would notice, but still, that's pretty bad.

I have said it before, and I am saying it again. I AM SO TIRED OF THIS F-ING ADOPTION PROCESS. I AM TIRED OF NOT KNOWING ANYTHING. I AM TIRED OF BEING IN THE DARK. I AM TIRED OF WATCHING MY SON GROW UP IN PICTURES...

Ok, enough morose blogging for the day. But hey, no one is forcing you to read this, right? Next time i will endeavor to have something positive to say. Or at least pictures of puppies, or rainbows...something happy. really. I will try!

Monday, April 21, 2008

Back from Arizona....




Have I mentioned before how terrible my job is??

(Three separate golf courses. One (the bottom one) is one of the most exclusive in the entire country. And somehow, they let little ol' me onto their course. Although, it must be said, I DO NOT play golf. I merely do the research that keeps their greens nice and, well, GREEN.) I really do LOVE my job, esp. when I get to travel to new courses for work!

Wednesday, April 16, 2008


I've been out working on "my" course the last few days. It doesn't really look like much now, but it's going to be a really nice course. Here's a picture of what it looks like now. We clearly haven't put out our fairway grass yet. We hope to do that in June.

Monday, April 14, 2008

Perspective

I do occasionally need to be reminded to keep life in perspective. Thanks to those of you who have commented (or emailed) recently to remind me to keep my chin up, and my perspective bright. In fact, I am trying to stay positive this week with the anticipation of a (work) trip out to Arizona. I am really excited, and will bring back lots of good pix. Here's a teaser for where I'll be:
Weather forecast: Mostly clear. Lows in the 50s. Highs in the lower to mid 80s.

It's a tough job, but someone has to do it... ;->

(just for those of you who know "golf". I'll be spending the weekend prowling around Desert Mountain Golf Course). Yeah, that Desert Mountain...

Saturday, April 12, 2008

New pictures. whoopy do.

Got new pics of my son on Friday. I hate them. Last months pictures were WONDERFUL. Minute was happy, smiling, ADORABLE. I still had faith I'd see him before he turned one year old. Now, well, the pictures are...well, not him. I mean they are OF him, but he isn't smiling, and he has a big wound or bump on his head and part of his little head is shaved and I hate them. I want him HERE so badly... the pictures just aren't working for me anymore. I need his little feet to touch, and his little cheeks to kiss. Here. Now. PLEASE????

Tuesday, April 08, 2008

No good news - big surprise.

So, our agency had another conference call the other day... basically it told us nothing new, and nothing that gives me any real hope. Things do seem to moving in a positive direction, but who knows how long things will continue to take. We now owe MORE money (a substantial amount, actually) to complete our adoption. "because it's taking so long" was the reason. Of course, there's more to it, but I can't go into details. And what else are we going to do other than pay up? Talk about having us by the throats... The Minute turned 9 months old the other day... I couldn't even blog about it. In fact, I am pretty much moving on with my life. I'm making more and more work plans. I'm NOT doing ANY sort of baby shopping, and need to get rid of all the 6-9 month clothes I have up in Minute's closet. I have virtually NO 9-12 month clothes, but hey, why spend the money now? When we get the TA, I'll call my good friend Brooke, and she and I will frantically buy 2 weeks worth of clothes to travel with. I can't stand the thought of getting anything else only to have to pack it back up.

I'm pretty low energy today, too. I've got "the crud". The flu has been going around, and it decided I was the perfect host this week. Fortunately, I am doing pretty well. Not sick enough to stay home from work, unfortunately, but too sick to feel like doing much. Oh well.

anyway, hope to give y'all some positive news soon, but I wouldn't hold my breath!

Wednesday, April 02, 2008