Friday, August 22, 2008
I'm protesting publicly. I've been forced to take a day off work. That's right. I was told to stay home. I have serious issues with this... It's 10 o'clock and I have gotten virtually nothing done. Well, that's not true. I have chased the baby around the house for like 30 minutes, fed and clothed the baby, chased the baby around the house AGAIN, and am now watching him as he sleeps. I'm supposed to be working on real work (which I will get to here in a second), but as soon as the baby wakes up, I'll be back to baby wrangling.
I don't know how SAHPs (that's Stay At Home Parents to be fair to Moms AND Dads) do it. Y'all are really wonderful and special people and deserve to be sainted. It would make me crazy. There's NO F-ing WAY I COULD DO IT. Plus, I miss being at work. It's SOOOO hard for me to focus on work here at my house. We are STILL working on getting the house back from the mess it became when we rolled home, and I HATE the mess. HATE HATE HATE. I have a hard time enjoying ANY of the rooms when I look up and see a pile of CRAP sitting there on a chair, table, or whatever. Now, it's not THAT bad, really. But the clutter is there, and it makes me nuts. Minh's play room is a wreck. I spent 10 minutes cleaning the toys up and he spent 10 seconds taking them back out. I put them back, he takes them out.... So, I finally got smart this morning, and left the toys out... but now, there are toys ALL OVER THE FLOOR. So, I'm trying to work in the living room. But, Minh LOVES the computer...or maybe he hates it. I can't tell. But when the laptop is out, and he's awake, he just wants to treat it like a drum. So, I can't exactly work while he's awake.
Ok, I know I sound like I'm bitching an AWFUL lot...and I am. And to be perfectly fair, I am both very happy and kind of depressed (I've read about this too. Post Adoption Depression). I hate that my life has been usurped by this little person. But, I love this little person. It's a weird feeling being both happy and sad at the same time, especially after wanting this for sooooo long.
However, no matter what, Minh is WONDERFUL. He is a true joy to get to know, to be around, and to spend time with. Out of the 3 weeks he's been with us, he's only woken up unhappy ONE SINGLE DAY in the entire 3 weeks (and that was today). Every other day he has gotten up with a HUGE smile of his face, and ready to face the world with a fantastic attitude. A real lesson for all of us. (Especially me, huh?).