Sunday, May 10, 2009

Happy Mothers' Day

My first Mothers Day as a real-honest-to-goodness-Mom. It still kind of takes me by surprise when someone says "Happy Mothers Day". I still have this odd feeling that, although MM is very much my kiddo, I don't FEEL like a Mom. What does that mean, exactly? I don't know. But, either way, today is my first. So, I also extend a Happy Moms Day to every mother out there!

Oh, and these pictures are for My Mother - MM's Big Mama. How's this for making up for a few missed days!??

On a totally unrelated note:

I haven't been blogging much lately. To be very honest, I have had neither the time nor anything good to blog about. I've been wrestling with a few "big" issues. Not the least of which is the heart surgery thing. I'm still in one of the first stages of grieving (so sez my therapist) - anger. I'm so angry that I/we have to go through this again. To say I'm not looking forward to it is the biggest understatement that anyone has EVER stated. I'm stressed out about it, and I'm scared. I hate the whole idea of this thing. The emotional and physical strain is bad enough, but the biggest thing on my mind at this particular second is How are bloody #&% ^ we even going to pay for it? Last time it cost us about 1/2 of what our adoption cost. this time, it'll probably be a little more. In fact, I could have a nice gently-used Beemer for what we're going to be paying... oh well. I guess you wouldn't want a discount heart-surgeon, would you??

For a real update on it, here you go: We meet with the surgeon May 14. We've had all the pre-tests done now, and we go back to set The Date. B/c MM is turning two in June, and we ar ehaving a big party, we;re going to put off the sugery (assuming the surgeon sez it's ok) until July. Same week as our seventh anniversary. nice anniversary gift, huh? Anyway, I'll give another real update when we get back next week from the appointment.

I have other big lousey news too. But, seeing that it's mothers day, I'm putting off the news until another day. I'm still struggling with this too, so it won't be a nice post, but hey, I've still got fantastic photos to post, so I'll soften the blow with ADORABLE Minute Man pix!!

So, enjoy the most recent pictures. He just gets cuter, doesn't he??


mindy said...

adorable pics, yes! So sorry to hear of your family's anguish. If it helps at all, I'm thinking of you way over here, holding you in my thoughts and focusing on the best outcome possible. (((hugs)))

Anne said...

Nesh - he does just get more wonderful. thanks so much for these photos!
Call anytime if you feel like a chat.
Love & lots of hugs,
A & J in cville